2.09.2010

Locker Room Diaries

Title: Locker Room Diaries - The Naked Truth about Women, Body Image, and Re-Imagining the "Perfect" Body
Author: Leslie Goldman
Pub Date: 2006
Pages: 236
Genre: Non Fiction, Health & Diet
Challenges: None


Argh!


Let me reiterate.

ARGH!!

This book was sooooo frustrating. Like, worse than having a hang nail and not be able to clip it, frustrating. And even worse than having someone stand right next to you pointing and saying, "I'm not touching you, I'm not touching you".

I picked it up because I was perusing through the library finding books that I normally wouldn't check out, when viola, it caught my attention. It presented itself as a "real look"at women and their body images. This sort of thing fascinates me. I mean, come on, we live in Dr. 90210 times and Biggest Loser marathons. I want to hear what real women have to say about their bodies. A no hold back sorta book, ya know?

And at first, that's what I thought I was getting. Goldman opens with her role in observing locker room conversations. How self conscious women are, how they self deprecate, judge, etc. But then, a few odd pages in, the woman seemed a bit, eh, flat? (For lack of better words). They didn't strike me as the type of friends I would surround myself with. Reading a bit more, I began to piece everything together.

These women were not normal women. At least, not in my universe normal women. These women were rich women. Skinny women. Women who spent $150 a month on a gym membership that would also give you a Brazilian wax after a workout for an extra $100. Ummm, my total gym membership for the year doesn't exceed $200. Are these women really speaking for the general public?

Plus, when she interviews the women about body images and weight, she never speaks to overweight women (two - I think - are interviewed in a later chapter specifically for that). More time was spent on: hey I've had an eating disorder and I understand the struggle. Not necessarily what I was looking for.

Nope. This book came across as superficial, over the top, and I was unable to relate. I kept reading it hoping for some redeeming qualities. My loss. I would not be surprised if this does not end up on my least liked list of 2010.


2.07.2010

TSS - Loved but Forgotton

Hey there Saloners! I hope everyone enjoyed their weekend. And, for all of those football fans out there, enjoy the Superbowl this evening. I'm not a huge football fan, but do love the camaraderie that sports brings forth. I invariably always root for the underdogs, in this case, the Saints perhaps?

Moving onto bookish thoughts though, there has been a "thing" that has been lurking in the back of my brain lately. Like all of you other book bloggers, I consider myself an avid reader. The plus of this is I get introduced to so many neat smurfy thoughts, worlds, and characters. The downside is, sometimes they (at best) blur together and (at worse) are long forgotten.

For example, there have been several occasions recently where I've read a review that someone has written and red lights start flashing in my head - Hey, I read that! I read that! So, um, of course I want to leave a comment, right? But then I wrack my brain and there's this dark deep black hole where the memory of that book has fallen into. The title is still there and this very light shade of familiarity. I can usually decide if I liked it, loved it, or hated it. But. That's. It.

So what to do in situations such as these? I could claim that I read it. Because I did. But can I truly own that reading when it's forgotten? I fear this dilemma will unfortunately only grow in size the more that I read. I vaguely remember this quote from somewhere. The main character, person, whom or whatever snickers and says: I have forgotten more than what you can hope to know. (Did I dream that? Does anyone know what I'm talking about??) So, I'm not so egotistically to shout that from the rooftops, but am a bit annoyed that I have misplaced my memories of the classics.

I decided to put together a list. Here I present to you:


The top ten books I loved but forgot why

1. Narrative of the Life of Frederick Douglas by Frederick Douglas - I know that this is a book about Douglas's life and the lives of slaves. Outside of the vividness that I remember of this novel, the strongest association I have is Douglas wrote this to validate/own his existence.

2. Cadide by Voltaire - This book, read nearly twenty years ago, left an impression but I have no clue on the specifics. I do remember a flogging scene that left me shuddering.

3. As I Lay Dying by William Faulkner - This book made me want to read more Faulkner (although I never did). It was also my first introduction to characters narrating different chapters. The thought of a family of kids carrying their dead mother (? was it the mother?) around in a coffin is still very creepy and dark.

4. The Plague by Albert Camus - OK so I went through this thing where I was fascinated by the Black Death. I couldn't get my hands on enough BD literature. In my naivete I didn't even recognize the philosophical aspects of this book until years later. And still, even now, I would love to re-read this. I recall people being at a fancy vacation place of sorts only to be faced with death.

5. Giovanni's Room by James Baldwin - I could not even tell you why I picked up this book when I did, freshman year in college. Maybe it was on a suggested reading list? In any case, I did not know how powerful of a book it was while reading it (this seems to be a trend). I remember the struggles made me pretty sad. Which really, is a rather shallow thing to say because the novella is so much more.

6. The Grapes of Wrath by John Steinbeck - A family traveling across the country. Depression. Disease. Death. And in between all of the beefy chapters where we intact with the family are mini vignettes that tell of a larger story. Details outside of that escape me. Except for the symbolic ending of life continuing..

7. Steppenwolf by Herman Hesse - I read this during my existential crisis stage (right there with The Plague, see above). Yet Steppenwolf, well, embarrassingly enough I cannot even tell you what happens in this book. Nope. But it was powerful enough for me to read Siddartha and Demian also during that time period. Unfortunately I vaguely remember those books either. I have recently acquired The Glass Bead Game and hopefully after I read that, I will like it and remember it.

8. The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath- I wanted to be in New York and friends with Plath while reading this book. Of course, I read this book around the time I wanted to be a writer and I hung out at bars spouting out "I drink. I write. That's what I do."

9. Sister Carrie by Theodore Dreiser - I read this begrudgingly for a class in college. It was thick and the cover was outdated. Another one that I couldn't really tell you much about except I finished it and raved about it the rest of the semester. I know it was character driven and the woman became her own person.


10. Beloved by Tori Morrison - Which came first, Beloved? Song of Solomon? The Bluest Eyes? Paradise? I can't really recall because I devoured Morrison in a matter of months. In hindsight, perhaps if I took my time with her, I'd have a better recollection of her works.

So there you have it. For the most part, I'm embarrassed at how little I remember of these great pieces of literature. Plus, I've only narrowed it down to ten. While perusing through my old reading lists and required high school reading I found myself giving a nod to more than a handful that could have fallen into this category. I trust that I will keep blogging, if only because it helps me remember where I've been!

What about you? Do you have books that you loved but forgot why?

2.04.2010

Tales from Outer Suburbia

Title: Tales from Outer Suburbia
Author: Shaun Tan
Pub Date: 2008
Pages: 93
Genre: Graphic Short Stories, Picture Book
Challenges: GN

*le sigh*

Seriously. That was exactly what I was doing after each couple of pages. Have you ever read a book that you just wanted to crawl up inside of because it doesn't just transport you mentally, but emotionally? I don't really consider myself a visual person, when I read I don't get full images, rather what draws me in is the essence of the story. Tales of Outer Suburbia, however, drew in all of my senses.

I cannot even tell you which story was my favorite! Was it the Water Buffalo? In this tale, a wise water buffalo lives in the vacant lot in a neighborhood. He's a somewhat lazy buffalo who ignores all of the passerbys unless they need him. Because, as I said, *this* water buffalo is a wise one. If you have a question, ask the buffalo and he'll always point you in the right direction. I mean, really? I buddha-esque buffalo? Why can't he live down my street? Oh, and here he is, just in case you wanna ask him something!



Oh my gosh, and then there's this story about poems that people have written and have forgotten all about. Tan takes you on a journey: "the truth is that unread poetry will almost always be just that doomed to join a vast, invisible river of waste that flows out of suburbia".

The images are perfect, scraps of paper being tossed aside, only to slowly grow into this huge ball of unwantedness. Finally, when the mass has grown to darken the world, it bursts, leaving whispers of words to fall to the ground.

*le sigh*

Or what about the story of house number seventeen where a dugong magically appears in their front lawn? (Undertow) I so want to go and sit with a group of people and read these stories out loud and have a group sigh and share in the beauty.


2.02.2010

Emiko Superstar

Title: Emiko Superstar
Author: Mariko Tamaki & Steve Rolston
Pub Date: 2008
Pages: 150
Genre: Young Adult, Graphic Novel
Challenge: Graphic Novel


I absolutely love how this book opens.


First, rather than chapters, there are "scenes", as if you were reading this script, this visual script. There are notations like, "If you want, you can kick on the rock and roll soundtrack here." as the young Emi, in her rockin' clothes, comes sneaking home passed curfew. Immediately I am drawn in.


From the opening scene we are introduced to Emi as the Emi of the beginning of the summer. She's a bit of a wallflower working as a babysitter. Life seems pretty repetitive and unexciting. And then, while blowing her first paycheck at the mall, this super cool hipster hippie chick begins twirling around in the center pavillion tossing flyers up in the air. Like fate, a flyer falls miraculousy into Emi's hands. It reads: "Freak Show at the Factory" on Friday night.



Of course Emi is interested and excited and nervous. Should she go?? It takes a couple of attempts, but she finally submerses herself into the Freak Show. There, she meets Henry, a photographer who gives her the ins and outs of Factory life. He encourages Emi to find the artistic voice within herself and audition at the Gong. Performers who make the Gong join the acts in Friday Night's Freak Show.


Soon, the quiet Emi has a new group of friends, including Poppy (the cool chick from the mall) and begins to undergo a physical and personal transformation.


Emotional Response



From this point on, I am going to try to make this spoiler free, but just in case I don't you might not want to read further than: Read this book. You'll love it (!)(!)(!). OKAY. So, I really dig Minx publishing. Some of you might remember they are the same publications as The Plain Janes, Good as Lily, and Re-Gifters. I like them for various reasons, but in particular because the stories include POC, artistic merit, and quirky characters that I would have liked to have hung out with in high school for sure. Emi initially began as one of those characters. I loved her enterance and her ability to find herself *and* use her heritage to do just that. Even when she snubbed Henry, I got it. Of course I was totally bummed and thought, "man, don't do that. Here's this cool guy and you're going to ruin it because you wanna be popular and accepted." But I GOT IT. What I had a hard time accepting, however, was the material that she used to perform her pieces. I won't say exactly what it is because that would DEFINITELY be a spoiler...but when I saw where the story was going I lost TOTAL and COMPLETE respect for Emi. Especially because it seemed like she just didn't get what she was doing. Even in the end, I think that she felt guilty but still didn't fully understand it. Henry made a comment about writing her story and owning her words, and maybe we can assume that she was going to use this summer's lesson to realize that the best art comes from our own lives? Who knows?


I did really like Poppy. She made me sad and even though she was a minor character, everytime she took the page, she really took the page. Think of that saying: There are no small parts, only small actors...well, Poppy was surely not an insignificant character even though she was a small one. I could see myself falling for Poppy in the same way that Emi did. She radiated creativity and arts, life, love and blood. And I sort of saw her as embracing the total definition of "Superstar". I expect to hear Elton John's Candle in the Wind playing in the background. So many people would want to surround themselves around Poppy, but no one really got to know her? I mean, all of this was implied. Or those who she wanted to know her only used her.

There's another side story with the family that Emi babysits. It was a good story; I just wasn't terribly emotionally involved. No comment there. Suffice to say, this is hands down one of my favorites. It's a quick fun read, for sure!


1.31.2010

TSS - Book Betrayal

I'm really bummed this week. Like, I cannot ever remember having this icky of a book experience.

Last weekend I went to my local library to peruse this shelves. I wanted to walk away with a book that I had no prior knowledge of so I was quite thrilled when I came across Burned Alive. It's an autobiographical account of a woman who grew up in a small village in Palestine. When she was eighteen her brother-in-law doused her with gasoline and lit her on fire because she was unwed and pregnant. The novel heavily exposed the punishments of the honor law held in these cultures. Souad's story was painful to read, heart-wrenching, and nauseating.

I finished Burned Alive in a day. And when I closed the book, I wanted to immediately write my review because the story was *that* powerful. It was important to me to present my emotional encounter with this book.

Things came up that prevented me from having the time I wanted to do this review. So, I put it off for Monday. And that's when it happened.

Betrayed. By The. Book?


Essentially, I wanted to do a bit of an internet scavenger hunt because I am a self-professed ignorant individual when it comes to middle eastern politics. In part, that's why I was anxious to read this book. Instead of finding more information about Souad and her story, or the woman, Jacqueline who helped rescue her from Palestine and into Europe, I find articles debunking the memoir completely.

Now here's the thing, sure while I was reading it there were a couple of things that struck me as questionable. Most prominent in my mind was Souad's trip to the hospital after being severely burned where she claims that the doctors and nurses didn't give her any water or food because they wanted to kill her off, keep the honor code, not get involved, etc. I know basic physiology. Enough to know that we couldn't really survive without water for weeks. But, my justification for her thoughts and how they didn't mesh with what I know is, duh, she'd just been burned alive. She couldn't truly have been fully aware of everything that was going on while in the hospital room. In fact, I would guess she slipped in and out of consciousness quite frequently. I know I do when I just have a cold!

The articles brought up other evidence, like the treatment of the burn wounds, likeliness of her survival, and the village having a telephone. Yes, a telephone. a technicality that I read quite willingly because - in case you forgot - I'm IGNORANT of what type of technology other parts of the world have. If you tell me that a village has a phone, I'm gonna believe it. I mean, *I* have a phone. And *I*'ve had a phone all my life. Sure, I get that there are places that don't. But, really. If you say that you do, who am I to question it.

I'm not going to go further into the questionable-ahem-citations (except that Jacqueline and her volunteer organization no longer exists....) because, quite assuredly, it will just bum me out more!

And I've been trying to unbum myself since this past Monday when my bubble bursted.

I know I'm not the first. Hell,Oprah even got betrayed by Million Little Pieces. And perhaps the worse hoax that I've heard about is the book Angel at the Fence by Herman Rosenblat (Rosenblat wrote that he met his wife while a concentration camp, invoking this incredible love story. However, in actuality, him and his wife were set up on a blind date in NY).

Gosh, I'm sure that there are even more books out there that I could find if I decided to do the research. I just don't think my soul could handle it.

And honestly, I guess, in summation to all of this venting/bumming/whiny I want to ask, simply, why. Why betray a willing audience? Why distort life? Why capture something in humanity that should be exposed and shared if it's not authentic? I mean really, how do they go to sleep at night?

I hope in the case of Souad, if the story truly was false, that people didn't send money to the organization to show support. That just makes the deed so dirty! I'm glad the book opened some doors for me to research honor killings; I just wished that I had a validated book to rave about because it pointed me in that direction.


1.26.2010

Not Quite What I Was Planning

Title: Not Quite What I Was Planning: Six-Word Memoirs by Writers Famous and Obscure
Edited: Rachel Fershleiser & Larry Smith
Pub Date: 2008
Pages: 227
Genre: Non Fiction, Memoir, Writing
Challenge: N/A


This is just the coolest and quickest book I've read all year (ahem, which seeing as it's only January that doesn't say much, but *still*). Six Word Memoirs. Ever heard of them? They're pretty self explanatory. Write your memoir in six words exactly. How neat right? I found out about this book through a writing training I attended a couple of months ago. A friend picked it up and (of course) I snagged it right from under her when she made the mistake of brining into work. Lest you take her side, be assured that she did already use it in the classroom, so it really was only fair that I grab onto it next. I lie not when I said I read it in one sitting, and then once more. Some made me laugh. Some made me cry. Some made me ponder. And still, some just serious confused. I've posty-posted quite a few pages, so I'm going to share my top faves.


  • Says deaf boyfriend: you're too quiet. ~ Anna Jane Grossman

  • Took scenic route, got in late. ~ Will Blythe

  • Cried. Defied, Denied. Sighed. Died. Reapplied. ~ Josh Gosfield

  • Blogging is easy. Writing is hard. ~ Jennifer Shreve

  • Found true love after nine months. ~ Jody Smith

  • My life's a bunch of almosts. ~ Shari Bonnin

  • Verbal hemophilia. Why can't I clot? ~ Scott Mebus

  • Born a twin, died a loner. ~ Heather Thompson

  • My life is just like yours. ~ Matt Stephens

  • Can my words have footnotes, please? ~ Amy Harbottle

  • Blade cuts, blood runs, scars remain. ~ Heather Hudgins

  • Revenge is living well, without you. ~ Joyce Carol Oates

  • Detergent girl: Bold. Tide. Cheer. All. ~ Martha Clarson

  • Learning disability, MIT. Never give up. ~ Joe Keselman

  • Philosophical teen, surrounded but sometimes lonely. ~ Nehemiah Blazek

  • Tried not believing evertyhing I thought. ~ Beth Linas


AND MY FAVORITE


  • EDITOR. Get it? ~ Kat Hamill


1.22.2010

Walking Backward

Title: Walking Backward
Author: Catherine Austen
Pub Date: 2009
Pages: 167
Genre: Young Adult, Realistic Fiction
Challenges: YA


Josh is twelve years old. He has a little brother, Sam, who is four. Up until recently, his life was pretty normal. And then his mom died.

You would think that this would be a depressing book, wouldn't you? And although it deals with existential questions like what really happens to us when we're dead, it's equally thoughtful and humorous. Well, in that the humor borders on dry and nudges up against mouth-dropping-open.

For example: Josh's dad, since the mom's death is hell bent on building a time machine. He spends his hours after work locked down in the basement because he's SO CLOSE to making it work. Josh of course realizes that his dad has gone off the deep end and decidedly says so in his journal (which we get the privilege to read). Amusing, but amusing in that sad way, yaknow?

Josh is also concerned about the legacy his mom could have left. He becomes a bit obsessed with the Darwin Awards (awards that are handed out the inanely stupid people, whose stupidity results in physical accidents or death). You see, although Josh's mom was brilliant (she was a professor at the university and everyone loved her) she had extreme phobias. Including a snake phobia. Plastic snakes freaked her out. Pictures of snakes freaked her out. And it just so happens that there was a snake in her car the day that she drove off to run errands, which OBVIOUSLY freaked her out - so she ran off the side of the road and crashed into a tree. Josh is FEARFUL that his mom's death will be awarded the Darwin Award and e-mails them, begging that they pass her story by.

In order to help deal with his grief, and maybe I see it as dealing, but a twelve year old boy wouldn't, his natural inclination is to research what all of the major religions believe about death and dying. Especially, how long is the appropriate time to mourn someone that you love. Which I think is a very important question for anyone, but even more so for a young kid who misses his mom but catches himself laughing every now and again.

I really enjoyed this book and because of its length was able to finish it in a couple of hours. I will definitely keep Catherine Austen on my radar. And since death is such a touchy subject and I honestly believe books are great therapy, I'm keeping this on my shelf for my students to enjoy.


(Oh, and I got this book from LT's Early Reviewers).

1.20.2010

Love Story

Title: Love Story
Author: Erich Segal
Pub Date: 1970
Pages: 131
Genre: Romance
Challenges: GG


Love Story is not an adored novella because of its originality. Oliver the nth is a preppie Harvard athlete with daddy issues up the arse. I mean, how can Ollie compete with Daddy Does It All Perfectly - or as he refers to him, sonavabitch or Stony Face. Jennifer is the witty working class artiste who is studying music at Radcliffe. They meet, they fall in love, they marry, and Jenny dies of a rare form of leukemia. Don't scream, don't scream! I didn't give anything away because (a) you're not going to read this story because of the plot and (b) Ollie opens his story revealing Jennifer's death.

So why read this if not for plot? Oh my gods, the writing, of course! Segal writes both simply and eloquently; humorously and sentimentally; nerdy and literary. You gets me?

My emotional reactions (SPOILERS - DO NOT PASS GO!)

I didn't know what to think when I first opened this book. I had not heard a gosh darn thing about it until one day whilst reading Bookmarks they mentioned it as an all-time must read in the literary romance category. Romance normally doesn't pull at my strings. But I decided to take the risk. I found it on Bookmooch and Bam.

When I opened it and found out in the first page Jennifer was going to die, I thought: Oh well, okay. Now I know, I won't tear up. I'll be emotionally detached because I can prepare myself. Boo on the author for doing that!

And then I met Jennifer - Jenny - Jen through the eyes of Ollie and man alive did she kick butt. I was giggling and nodding my head at her shaming "Preppie" in this teasing-but for real sorta way. She was totally someone I would hang with.

Ollie's relationship with his dad was also interesting. In every scene he dogged daddy viciously. "Yes sir", "no sir", while never giving the man an opportunity to talk. Now, I realize that we walked into this relationship while Ollie was twenty and I am sure that there were tons of built up frustrations that the poor young Ollie went through to turn him into this bratty and disrespecting young man - but *still* I had to agree with Jenny when she kept on reminding Oliver that his dad loved him. But you know what was great? I mean, why this was so important to my love for this book? Even though Segal didn't go into detail about Ollie's life growing up in the shadow of his dad, you got it. I mean really got it. This book is a small book. A quick read. But the characters SPRUNG alive. I have read books that push 400 pages and I still don't feel a thing for the people involved.

Which leads me to the ending. I knew Jenny was gonna die. Didn't I tell you, it opened that way? But when I realized I had only twenty or so pages left and knew the inevitable was coming I wanted to slow down my reading. I grew angry. Was I really going through my own process of dying? Mental check - yup, I denied that the author would end on that note, I bargained with myself...maybe I could stop reading and pretend that all ended well...anger - yup that was easy (don't kill off Jenny!!). Finally I just accepted the fact that I had to keep reading. And then, most surprisingly - grief. I teared up. I teared up having known that it was not going to end well to begin with. I teared up after spending only 130 pages with these people (and the font size was not ultra small, people).

Meet Jennifer and Oliver.

I waved the envelope at hear. She immediately recognized the letterhead.

"Hey - Harvard Law school! Have you been kicked out?"
"Guess again, you optimistic bitch," I yelled.
"You were first in the class!" she guessed.
I was now almost ashamed to tell her.
"Not quite. Third."
"Oh," she said. "Only third?"
"Listen - that still means I make the goddamn Law Review," I shouted.
She just sat there with an absolute no-expression expression.
"Christ, Jenny," I kind of whined, "say something!"
"Not until I meet numbers one and two," she said.